Friday, 24 October 2014

Friday 24th October

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Yesterday was a lovely day just spent doing housework and knitting, I did not end up going into town for the yarn, will save that for Sunday or Monday.

I am on a mission to get the Cardigan I am knitting done, whilst I know the recipient will love it, I am not enjoying knitting it, as its grey, fishermans rib and I cannot show pics on here as it is a Christmas Gift.

I knitted a whole side front yesterday, but was naughty and started my very first Lace knit shawl (slippery little sucker of a yarn, so may be a challenge).

Today sees a 6 hour shift to be done - so no knitting till tonight.
We have fish pie for tea as I made it up yesterday, all we have to do is knit heat it up, doh! Knitting on the brain.  Knitting up a fish pie! Guffaw! Hilarious!!

Not on track food wise and not exercising, saw a comment on Facebook this morning in our running club page, that really may have put the nail in the coffin for me returning to club. Will have to find out the full details before I decide, as one side of the story and all that.

I know my stress levels are up, as the dizzy spells are back - one day at a time mantra is in force though.

Happy Friday everyone xxxxx

Thursday, 23 October 2014

Thursday 23rd October

Posted by tracy watkiss at 09:29 0 comments
Such a busy week, bosses are away and overtime needs to be done, in all honesty though it is killing me. I find it tough enough to get out to do my own shifts, let alone do more.

Then there is the fact that we are not as sure on the Post Office counter side of things as the boss is, and the 2 people supposedly left in charge are having a bit of a power frenzy moment - even though they are both nice girls, its not making a very good work environment at the moment.

But IT IS A DAY OFF today!!!! Whoop Whoop. I get to do just what I want.

Yesterday morning before work, I had to pop to mums to get rid of some bits in the fridge she left before going on holiday.  Caught up on FB with Elaine and Novas antics on there 5 day break. Then I popped into Fabric and Paper to see Karen & Jill, so glad the Christmas fete was a good one for them, and to hear John is recovering well. Also found out Jill is very much the mad cat lady now.

Then into town, paid a bill and deposited money into bank, then drool time as I went into Dingles and looked at all the yummy rowan yarn.  I have 3 projects to knit as Christmas Gifts before I start on Some knitting for me.

I want to knit this

MMMMMMM!! Thinking light caramel for the blue, with a darker brown accent, with shades of mustard yellow, moss green, cranberry and cream to make it more autumnal. I will use Rowan pure wool 4ply.  OOOH I want to start it NOW!

All the while my beef stew was cooking in the slow cooker.

Well that was yesterday, Today I may just go back and get the Rowan wool, as I plan a day of knitting and home relaxation.

I am not a hustle and bustle person in the cooler months, honestly not a hustle and bustle person any month really. I am content in my own company. I would love a cottage in a village out towards the moor, to hide away in with a coal fire. I would spend the days, pottering, baking, knitting and reading. Walking my dog for a couple of hours a day. A blissful life. Please Euromillions be nice LOL!!!!

Must go, there is gift knitting to be done so I can get it finished xx

Wednesday, 15 October 2014

Wednesday 15th October

Posted by tracy watkiss at 09:56 0 comments
Good morning

Ain't it grand to wake up to wet miserable weather. Everything looks so grey and dull.

I am a little tired today, bosses have gone on their holidays and it is leaving staff to cover lots of shifts, I started at 5.45 am yesterday and finished at 3pm. With 9 deliveries (including the main one for the week) in that time with different suppliers, to check in pay, book into computer system and put away. Cook the pasties, pies, sausage rolls for the day, open the shop, open the lottery terminal and post office counter, all the while serving customers the day literally flew by.

Came home had a bit of tea then out to get a free haircut from my friend Pauline, we sat and chatted for over an hour and it was lovely. She is one of my oldest non crafting / non exercising friends and I realised I have neglected our friendship in pursuit of other activities.  Maybe neglected is too strong a word, but I have come to realise that It was nice just to chat and sit with her, no rushing around so have agreed to meet up with her again soon. Hopefully in 2 weeks on a friday night either in either home or a pub.

I am also hoping to go catch up with Karen(owner of fabric & paper) at some point this week - wishing John a speedy recovery, and also Elaine and Nova this Friday. Then I hope to rejoin Kathy out running soon.

I tend to hide away from friends and family when I am not good, Its nothing personal to them, it is my coping mechanism. I don't mean to hurt peoples feelings by not seeing them as often as I should but these few people have all come into my life and have created good times for me and hopefully them. I feel we may not see one another as often as we should - everyone leads such busy lives nowadays, its such a shame we all have to work so hard, but I know if any of these people needed me I would be there for them and vice versa.

I love all my friends muchly xxx

Saturday, 11 October 2014

Sorry the mist descended!

Posted by tracy watkiss at 08:45 0 comments
Thursday was a goodish day but not food wise, now that should have set alarm bells off, yesterday was a total disaster on both mood and food. Yep I had a D day (demon day) one of those days that the depression and anxiety wins.

I did fight like hell through my shift at work all 6 very busy hours, with no break or even time for a cuppa.

Have another 6 hour shift today, but looking at the weather that's a good thing.

Hey ho - Blip days are what makes me at the moment.

On a positive note because I have learnt to except that these days are here for a bit, they are part of me (for now), I am planning a totally relaxed evening tonight - even going to have chippy tea, I know, how naughty. Then tomorrow I plan to get up, do the food shop and knit all day, may take Oscar on a long long walk if it is dry.

That's me for now.

Wednesday, 8 October 2014

Good Morning Peeps!

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Well it looks like its trying to be a lovely Autumn day out there anyway. I love Autumn cold sunshine days, the turning of colour on leaves, the nip in the air just to remind you its nearly time to hibernate, indoors for winter, with movies and blankets, to be all toasty cosy and warm. Without having to go out, show off skin the colour of alabaster LOL! Not having to defuzz from the knee up, (well that's where my running leggings reach.) KIDDING!!!!! or am I??

 I am sat around trying to get through to my doctors surgery to find out if they have my results yet, I am itching to swim and run (see defuzzing IS still needed). So to relieve me from the never ending busy ringtone of the Surgery I have been looking through my Camera SD card. I really have not used the Camera as much as I wanted too - this is going to be rectified ASAP.

I did find a couple of photos on there from my holiday in Zante this year.

This was taken very early in the morning as we were heading out on the ferry to Olympia.

Aaah its lovely to have the experiences and memories of foriegn places.  On the same camera I also had pictures of a beautiful day spent with Elaine, Nova,  and Gary at Portland and Weymouth.

O well, this is getting nothing done, got through to surgery to be told results are not back yet. So continue the waiting game. Not got work till 5 tonight, so cuppa time and then to decide how we are going to spend today.

bye for now xx

Tuesday, 7 October 2014

Yummy food for chilly weather.

Posted by tracy watkiss at 11:54 0 comments
OOH it has turned cold really quickly, has it not?

Going to work this morning at 5,50am was a very BRRRRR!! moment.

Last night when I finished at 9.15pm I was so grateful I had prepared my evening meal earlier on in the day, and it was warming in the oven thanks to lovely hubby for popping it in before coming to pick me up.  It was one of those meals just right for a cold evening.

(forgot to take a pic, so borrowed one of off the Interweb, oops!)

Cowboy Pie

2 Weight Watchers Sausages (3pp)
1/2 can baked beans (4pp)
mushroom chopped
onion chopped
potatoes and a drop of skimmed milk. (4pp for potato, milk from daily milk points)

Brown Sausages and chop up. Put to one side.
Dry fry onion and mushroom mix in sausages and beans. pop into oven proof dish.
Boil and mash potato with a little milk and put on top of sausage and bean mixture. Bake in oven for 25 minutes on Reg 6 gas and enjoy.

If you are not watching your weight or have enough Pro Points add some grated cheese to the top MMMM!!!!!.

The Late Monday early Tuesday shifts are a killer and I intend to do not a lot for the rest of the day. A little bit of knitting and a cheesy afternoon film maybe.

Keep warm everyone xx

Monday, 6 October 2014

Thank god its monday!

Posted by tracy watkiss at 09:14 0 comments
Well what a weekend that was. One I hope is never ever repeated!

After my last post of losing Uncle Merv, Within 12 hours we Aunty Val had passed away. My poor Sarah (25) was in the room visiting as it happened too. Despite all the sadness, I am surprised though how the one thing that normally causes so much stress in peoples lives - Facebook, has actually managed to bring all the cousins together in their grief.

As a family we are spread far and wide, some even in Australia, this weekend was spent Saturday supporting one another through, but Sunday was more of a chatty day reconnecting with one another.

With all the sadness around I settled for a nice quiet day yesterday, went shopping with hubster for food for the week ahead.

Got my mum some sunflowers, to brighten up her sad weekend, and to remember happy times.

Then we came home and sat and watched the films "The Alamo" and Johnny Depp in "Charlie and the chocolate factory" all the whilst I knitted.

Now diet wise I think I did very well, Did not over eat Saturday and Sunday, was very mindful of my usual - sod it reaction to bad things, and I stayed within points. Sunday is always a heavier day food wise for me as it is the only day I am home all day so it's a tad harder but I normally save weekly points for this. But came out + 2pp, which is very good all things considered.

Today is my first new weigh day 10st 4 1/2lbs, I have a few weeks then I hope to rejoin my WW group. I need that structure and with my new working hours (after covering bosses holiday the next 4 weeks) I can attend a midday class.

Here is hoping we all have a good week, both with loved ones, diet and fitness wise.

Hugs xx

P.S  New Mental Attitude = New look Blog = Cheery Place xx

Saturday, 4 October 2014


Posted by tracy watkiss at 11:18 0 comments

Another loved one lost - R.I.P Uncle Merv

I awoke this morning to the sad news that my uncle passed away late last night.
My love goes out to my cousins
Sam, Raymond and Shaun.

After speaking to my Mum this morning and hearing the unexpected news, my resolve broke again if last nights total disaster of eating after hearing aunt Val is seriously Poorly and may not make the weekend was not enough, devouring chocolate, chips and bread and butter, (comfort food again) I went straight to the (comfort food) toast for Breakfast.

I was then already planning how I could stuff myself for the rest of the day to cope with the feelings and numbness of loss and grief.

Then I stopped. Thought, Got angry and screamed, NO!! Enough! Point that toast and plan your evening meal, the guilt of stuffing will not make things better, it will only make it worse.

Off to work in a bit - I don't want to go in today, but I must. Keep pushing through the fog!

If you are spending your day with family and friends today - remember to let them know just how much they mean to you and how much you love them xx

Friday, 3 October 2014

GOOOD MORNING!!! How you all feeling today!

Posted by tracy watkiss at 08:52 0 comments

I am up, having a leisurely banana breakfast (0pp) before I go to work at 11am there till around 5pm tonight. I like Fridays I work in my bosses other shop today (no post office counter in this one, so it is easier) but it is delivery day so super busy, and goes quick!

With the day time hours and no staff room, lunch is an on the shop floor/ store room type of affair. So in amongst the pastries savoury/ sweet, and the shop packaged sandwiches finding something healthy is a hazzle, but I WILL stay strong, little pack lunch for me today it is.

Marmite, cheese triangle on a Warburtons slim,(4pp) (don't knock it till you've tried it), followed by some carrot and cucumber sticks to dip in a honey and mustard dressing (0pp) and an apple (0pp).

Saving up the points as may be going out tonight with the hubster - a very rare event of an evening. I am trying to get him to go along to his old darts team night, just for male company and to have something to look forward too each week. It is something we are going to do together and then we are really going to concentrate on getting his half plot allotment going, as we have had it 8 months and done nothing. Which is entirely my fault as I hate digging and there is a lot to dig.

Still not happy about not being able to exercise at the moment, I hope the results don't take longer than the predicted 2 weeks - I want to do the Plymouth 10km I am booked and payed onto. I want to train and swim. I WANT TOO!!! LOL! Stamping feet is now an option.

Points left for evening 22pp/26pp
Activity points earnt so far this week 5aps (Thanks to walking).
Weeklies left 0pp/49pp (I want to keep my weigh day as a Monday/Tuesday, so eliminated weeklies to allow for no self control the beginning part of the week).

Thursday, 2 October 2014

It ain't nothing bad!

Posted by tracy watkiss at 16:57 0 comments
That's it today - the little voice in my head is telling me it ain't nothing bad.

I have been knocked down again, but life is constantly knocking people down, its how we cope that defines us, but take away those coping mechanisms. All that is left to do is get up, go to work and sleep.

So this is me for the next two weeks, waiting for results from the doctors, not being allowed to exercise at all - swimming NO! Running No! Arrrgh. I was loving running again, it was making me feel "normal" again, whatever that is.

I have spent a couple of days wallowing in self pity, then I realised that the old demons were sneaking in. NOOOO! we can't let that happen. I have to learn that if I am busy and the D's start I may have to have a nanna nap in the afternoon.  I am finding this is also necessary too, if I am working an evening shift - its a coping mechanism, but it stops me going sick or crying all the time. So I will have them if they are needed.

Today sees drawing yet another line to start eating healthy again - I am a comfort eater, and I have needed a lot of comfort lately.

So far today I have been good and tracked every morsel that I eat.


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