Monday, 25 May 2015

Life is full of choices???

Posted by tracy watkiss at 09:50 0 comments
Life to me is a car journey, one big fat long journey. 

Full of choices as we make our way to the final destination, forks in the road, with plenty of wrong turns and dead ends.

Some of those roads lead to fantastic journeys, and lovely days to create memories from.

Some of those roads seem to go on endlessly boring and all the same with nothing great to look at or forward too.

Some of those roads are wonderful yellow brick roads, the ones we dream of, a happy ending and all will be just perfect, so we can have the life we strive for.

We have the little street roads making tiny choices every day, what to eat? where to go? what to do?

We have hobby roads too - for me at the moment, what to knit/ crochet? What Pattern? What yarn? even what needles?

We have lots of A roads too, what friends we choose or those that remain acquaintances?  How much time is spent with family and friends or on our own? Do we go that extra mile for people or do we not get involved - generally what would make life easier?

Then we have the more complex navigational roads, a little more taxing, you know the type I mean, the ones with the big round-a-bouts, you go around and around trying to decide which way to go and then you just have to get off, take a Leap (exit) of faith and go with a choice. What do we do to earn money? Have a career or have a job?  Work all the hours we can or spend more time at home with less money? What do we want out of our work, easy street or something more stretching?

I have always said that although we think that we are making these choices, our lives are mapped out from day one. The choices we make were always the choices we were going to make, even if we think differently. All predetermined.

Take me for instance - no matter what I have done in life - I always get drawn back into caring, looking after people. (I did want to be a nurse in the RAF, but circumstances did not allow for that).

When I was 13 my very first work experience week was working in a care home.
I then had children very young and stayed at home  with them until they reached school age, where I then went into school as a mealtime assistant and adult helper. Looking after children.
I worked as a PA for a while for a youth offenders rehabilitation Scheme, trying to change young peoples lives and putting them on a career path to better their lives.
I trained as a nursery nurse, I have done home help.

Even during 10 years as a craft demonstrator, I was pulled towards teaching and chatting with older ladies, making sure they were happy over tea and biscuits.

In my current job of retail I am pulled towards helping the older customers, helping them with their shopping and packing their bags, making sure the bags are not to heavy and they can manage, whilst I can do my job well, I cannot see me doing it for the rest of my working life.

I feel myself being drawn back into the caring field, and I am contemplating going back to work in a care home. I am at my happiest looking after people who need it.

So for me I am predetermined to be a Care worker/ Nurse / Health Care assistant.

May be airy fairy for some - but its the only way I can explain it.


Side note, I think I have rambled enough now oops!, so will post the intended post on knitting and finished projects later this week. 

Sunday, 3 May 2015

Sunday Morning May 3rd.

Posted by tracy watkiss at 09:08 1 comments
Good morning everyone and another overcast and drizzle rain day today.

How are you all?

Well I worked last night and in the little village I work in, it was May carnival and although the actual procession was very naff indeed, the pubs were very busy indeed which made for a very amusing afternoon/ evening.

I could honestly have just got intoxicated just off of the fumes.

People were generally very smiley and apologetic if they were overly wobbly and slurry with their speech. I heard  "May day - it's gotta be done, ain't it" so many times. But at least the evening went quickly.

So how was the rest of my day?

Food wise was not bad, could have done better, but knew I was only a couple of weight watcher points over.

No Exercise - but not a lot of sitting down.

Craft wise =

Hubby built me an MDF bird house for out side, I put a pic on instagram , but forgot to take a copy to put here, it is plain so now I have to decorate it. I started painting it yesterday afternoon.

Knitting I have a new project on the needles

The Wool Palette had some books reduced to £3.00 each and I picked up

Now I fully intend to knit every single pattern in this book, but to start me off I have cast on the back buttoned top - boring name for a pattern but Hey,

Now Barbara Greep owner of the Wool Palette has made me go for a colour out of my comfort zone

Hay field Fiesta, in colour way Surf Craze

 And I hope to use these funky buttons.

Right I have to go do the food shop - boring!!

Have a lovely day xxxx

Saturday, 2 May 2015

May 2nd

Posted by tracy watkiss at 09:21 0 comments
Well what a lovely day, Mother nature has decided to take a shower, to clean away the debris and give nourishment to the lovely plants and trees.

Yesterday, was a day to relax a day off, to sit and read the papers.
Yeah Right!!!

I decided to carry on the


Well I kid you not, 10 black sacks binned, And 7 boxes of craft supplies to go to the car boot and the room is still fit to bust. But A very tidy Fit to bust.

A room I can now move around in, instead of climbing over boxes. It has a bed init that is not just a dump everything on it bed, It is made up and clear of supplies.

Okay it took me virtually till 8.30pm to finish. But Its done. YAY!!

 Okay the dust has gone up my nose and I am this morning, sneezing and talking as If I have a peg on the end of it.  But I can get in there, sew, knit, craft and have fun again.

So what does today hold. Fun I hope. It is the May Carnival in the village I work in and when I was younger it was a fun thing, but now it appears just to be another excuse for lots of bands and drinking in the 3 pubs in the village. I am working in the shop tonight, so will be very busy indeed.

I have sometime this weekend got to sort out what clothes fits, for my holiday next month. Although A nice surprise this morning. I stood on the scales and  I have managed to maintain weight the last two weeks and not put more on. BELIEVE me that was a shock. eating or comfort eating is rarely a meal away at the moment. I know I have 1 stone to lose to get me back to goal, but it could be a whole lot worse.

I have my e-tickects, travel visas and passports all together. Then its just trying to find spending money.

Friday, 1 May 2015

May 1st

Posted by tracy watkiss at 08:53 0 comments
Well 4 months of the year have gone,

and Monday morning saw me very positive indeed about life.

I had perspective on what I want to do work wise and put plans in action.
I had decided once that's in place, I want to learn to drive and get myself a little runaround.
I had decided to work at but not be obsessive about diet and exercise.
I had decided to enjoy crafting again, I had just finished a lovely jumper.

Monday Afternoon however saw me very disappointed with peoples actions yet again and life.

In particular my two sister in laws. My heart broke for my husband yet again.  The lies and deception hurt the most.  Enough of that though!

As that saw us spiral down, me in particular a very heavy crash back to the harshness of their family. I was not bought up so mean spirited or selfish and I find it very hard to cope with. I mean trying to ignore the wishes of your parents will, because its not what you want? Come ON!!!!!   Everything seemed black doom and gloom for me then not the sun shiny yellow of the morning.

Tuesday was much the same went doctors for an appointment to be told the receptionist had given me the wrong date and time.

Even the jumper I knitted decided to let me down - After blocking and wearing proudly on Wednesday I washed it, when it came out of the gentle wash, the Yarn had literally broken in one spot and unravelled. (I presume the yarn must have had a weak ply as, there was no join in this area). It was another thing that added already to a tedious week.

Thursday saw me down and out, refused to do anything enjoy anything or go running.

But today I awake, Wipe my eyes and see more clearly

Monday was a good day - We ARE happy and moving forward together my hubby and me 
                                      They are lonely and miserable and holding on to a past by their accounts                                           that was abusive and negative.

Tuesday Was a good day - Saw my mum and her hubby, they got Dale to start action, 
                                       He found out he has the Law on his side. 
                                       But more importantly he saw a loving family that supports one another.
                                       So my appointment was wrong, the receptionist made a mistake she is only                                        human, 

Wednesday-                      A Fun filled day of laughter for me in the wool palette, My boss got my                                           wages wrong, tis funny I explained if its not family trying to diddle us its                                         my boss. 
                                        Dale had a family meeting, they tried to justify their lying, but have said                                           they will buy him out within a month, so 29th May The money should be                                         in our bank. Or It goes to denouncing them as executors                         

Thursday-                         The Whole day was spent sorting out my rather messy craft room through                                        anger - a job I have been neglecting for 10 months LOL!

SO As you can see a rather sun shiny week after all - when you look at it that way.

I know they will try in vain to knock us down again but you know what. I don't care.


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