Tuesday, 26 November 2013

Tiny Victory!!

Posted by tracy watkiss at 21:03 5 comments
Yay! I have realised just this minute that I have had a little victory today.

Sat at home and my friend Elaine asked if I felt like going to the gym, and without a thought said yes I want to go.

The Victory is for the first time in over 2 months I actually said I want to do it, rather than I have to do it.

It may seem insignificant to some, but to me it is a good step. Just needed to share. :-)

Saturday, 23 November 2013

Thank fullness of friends and family.

Posted by tracy watkiss at 16:42 2 comments
Well it is Saturday 23rd November at 4.33pm. I am sat watching a corny Christmas film on the television, worn out and exhausted.

It got me to thinking how lucky I am for having some amazing people in my life. Dale has gone away to see family in the midlands, I was not upto going away, but I knew my hubby needed a break so waved him off on Wednesday morning and he comes home tomorrow, I have missed him terribly and cannot wait to see him.

I have not really been venturing out on my own or going out, but this week I managed two very short walks with Osacr. Yep just me and him.

I managed a morning at my mums eating lunch.

Last night, My friend Elaine came and picked me up and we went to another friends house, drank wine, ate pizza, crisps and muffins and watched trashy television, crashed in her spare rooms and was delivered home safe and sound.

I am so lucky to have friends and family that are their to make sure I keep socializing as much as I feel upto with no pressure.

I miss my Bestie Karen, Jill, Marion and the shop, but I now know just how important it is for me to learn to accept what is wrong at the moment and work towards getting to a happy plateau when I can return and enjoy the shop again.

Take care xx

Friday, 15 November 2013

Designer Rip off!

Posted by tracy watkiss at 09:55 3 comments

Whilst I am at home getting myself sorted, I have taken up my knitting needles again, knitting helps me lock out the world, following written instructions means I don't have to come up with my own creative ideas, so no stress and worry (someone else has done the hard work, thank you wonderful clever peeps).

So in my first couple of weeks I produced "The Jan Sweater" by Susan Crawford her blog and available patterns are HERE.  Susan has a knack for updating older vintage knitting patterns, so we can use todays, needles and yarns.

I knitted it in Rowan 4ply pure wool and cost me about £40.00. It is a lovely warm wool, quite luxurious, worth every penny.
my version with me wearing it.

Imagine my surprise when I came along this (proof of rip off prices).

Dolce & Gabbana Version.

Whopping price tag = £640.00
 I kid you not.

So glad I know how to knit LOL!!

Sunday, 10 November 2013

We Shall Remember Them

Posted by tracy watkiss at 09:12 0 comments

Wednesday, 6 November 2013

So where am I?

Posted by tracy watkiss at 10:33 4 comments
Waiting for things to start happening can be a frustration in itself - it leads to chest tightening and faster breaths, I have learnt deep breathing helps.

The good news is the little fighter voice is coming back into my head, like a little mantra. I will return to work, I will return to crafting, I will return to running and Plymouth Musketeers R C.  Its not every day, still the nasty voice keeps saying you can't, you won't etc. Like two little ninjas fighting it out, on average the nasty voice wins a lot but the little good fighting Ninja will  come out on top and stay on top one day, and we will say take that depression, stress and anxiety.  Rest assured I am not mad and am thankful for all the good things and people in my life, supporting me.

My eldest daughter left Plymouth with her new husband on Monday to start their new life in Telford. Was a very sad day indeed. They will have so many more opportunities up there and  we hope to see them again soon. This sees my youngest daughter living on her own for the first time ever. Life goes on around even though I am stood still LOL!


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