Well I am still waiting for the necessary appointments to start sorting my mind out, and making me examine how I think, do and cope in future. I am sorry but I have decided to write things down here every now and again just for me.
I thought I had turned a corner yesterday when I started the day very positively and did some household chores, went out further than I had ventured in recent days and felt not so stressed.
Then Today I have crashed and burned, went out to get the papers, and panicked as hubby suggested going to get his tyre fixed on the car. Insisting he bought me home first, I know it sounds silly but it freaked me out, so he bought me home and then he went off to kwik fit.
I was so frustrated with myself I decided to try and make some easy cards to sell at the shops Christmas Fair in 2 weekends time. NOT a good Idea, I sat down pulled out a stamp, ink pad and card and started to sweat and feel sick, I could not do it. The hobbie I used to adore has to wait a bit, till I have sorted myself out some. I hope the love comes back when I am in a better frame of mind. So today is a bad day on this long road but Hey I had a good day yesterday!
So what is relaxing me - knitting.
I find sitting still knitting is allowing me to switch off from stress and worry and My wool stash is coming in useful. So on the positive side, I will be warm this winter.